So I decided to go ahead and start this blog. I've thought about it for a couple of months now and just decided to go with it. One of my new years resolutions is to do more things that I'd never normally do. I'd have to say that posting my weight loss journey online for anyone to see, definitely counts as something id normally never do/be comfortable with but this blog is going to be about changes and my road to a new and better me.
Hmmm...where to begin. Probably with some info about myself, right? :)
To be short and to the point; I'm 23 and I am 5'2" and 320 lbs and I'm ready to change. I am not happy with this person that I have become. I'm ashamed of myself, embarrassed, overwhelmed, upset and most of all angry. Who lets themselves get to this point? Every day I sit and think to myself, "how did you let yourself get to this point?" and every day my answer is "i really don't know how I could do this to myself". In 2004 when I was a sophomore in high school I was a "good" 150 lbs. I only had 20 lbs to lose to be at an ideal weight for my height and be truly happy with myself but family problems (I will talk about this a lot more soon) and other things just made me eventually stop caring and before I knew it, I was this 200+ pound loser that in my mind, was a complete failure and should just give up on all of my hopes and dreams. And that is exactly what I did. I stopped going out, I stopped hanging out with my friends and I just gave up on everything. I stopped going to college and just gave up on everything I wanted for myself because I was so far gone in my mind that it was pointless to even try. I became so depressed and so far gone that I got to the point where I was now 300+ pounds with pretty much no friends, no social life and no future.....
But now I am 23. It's 2012. And I am ready to have my life back. I'm ready to lose this weight, gain my life back and start this journey to a new and improved me. I am so sick of being the fat girl who hates going out in public because she knows people will stare and wonder who lets themself get to that point. I'm ready to start a new life and enjoy the rest of my 20's as a happy and healthy person.
I hope you want to follow me on this journey. I know it will be tough but I know this time I can do it and I'd love some supporters to back me up! :) I'm going to post on here daily and I hope that you'll follow me on this journey and possibly be inspired to start your own weightloss journey!!
See you tomorrow!
Xo
